Sex for me for the longest time was something I used as a way to get the boys to actually want to be with me. I never viewed it as anything sacred, or realized that my body didn’t need to be shared with anyone just because I was finally legal. I used to give myself up for meaningless hookups. I never gave myself the chance to truly know someone before I gave my body to them. I was always hoping the sex would give me meaning. Hoping that someone would eventually like me for me, without my limbs being involved. I thought that by filling my holes, I would somehow…