How much will power do you think you have?

Introduction: My Big Thing

I am a 24-year-old woman facing inner demons that currently want a stick of technology with nicotine in it. Although I know that may sound super pathetic, I started this blog in hopes of holding myself accountable. I also wanted to know if anyone else out there is facing the same demons, which I assume most people my age and older are, due to life.

Everyone seems to have a vice. It seems so normalized to have something to attach to your being because of something you’re dealing with.  

Have we all, as a society, taken the time to talk about that? It’s easier to add something to hold onto instead of letting go of the things that are making you hold on in the first place. What even are we trying to hold onto?  

Fear With Habit

I feel like, at least from my perspective and from what I’ve seen, it’s the fear of death—or lack thereof. Or the fear of living, or not living enough. For me, it was something we did when we would go to parties with friends and have drinks. Back when Juul was super trendy, everyone was doing it. It was something that was designated for just parties and then slowly started to be something we would sneak for fun at school. Slowly but surely, it became something we would all do in the car, hanging out at home, blowing O’s to pass the time.  

Then it was just something I did casually. Alone. Not with friends, not in random settings with random people I didn’t know. **Alone.** It’s weird, and toward the end of last year, I started thinking, *”Why do I need this thing to live my life?”* Because, quite frankly, I don’t.  

We all don’t, and I hope we can come to a general consensus that big tobacco and big companies don’t care about our struggles. They want us to feel like we need those things to live or to slowly—but surely—quicken the process of our last steps.  

Live With Intention

We are all heading there, but how do you want the time spent here to be? Can you make your own choices for yourself? I’m speaking to myself as well when I say these things. I hope that we can all take the power back in our lives.