New Weird Addictions Of The Screen Time

I decided to lean off of social media a bit. Besides Twitter, Facebook, and Instagram. I know that may still seem like a lot of social media and literally some of the most used.

I’m shaking my head at myself too.

Trying to limit doom scroll as often as I can.

Being on my phone is something I’ve been really really really bad at. It’s almost been this means of escaping my body while being in it kinda thing. I didn’t realize how connected and attached I felt to my phone until there was a period of time I went without.

I couldn’t bear the fact that I was no longer “connected to the world.”

The feeling of being on my phone is addicting.

Why is it so normalized to be on your phone in this weird dissociated space for a bit anyway?

I do it all the time, but I still find it really odd. Not a natural state of disassociation either.

We are essentially in this soul sucking portal or black time cube that takes so much of everyone’s time. As if it wasn’t already limited.

Do people crave to be in a hive mine?

Not in the way you think but like an interconnected being that you get to decide what todo with.

I’m not sure how to explain in a way that makes sense. But it makes sense to me. Maybe I’m crazy.

I do see the advantages though, and I’m glad we have made it this far into tech; that I can have everything at the tip of my fingers.

But I can’t get behind the fact that it all moves so fast, and we are not fully connecting it to the natural world. Almost like we are feeding while feeding the machine.

But maybe this is what the universe wants. I’m not too sure anymore.

The only thing I know is that sense removing Tik Tok, and my limits with the three apps I listened above. I managed to squeeze myself into a farm simulator app where you also tap into building the town amongst other things. Your girls an entrepreneur.

Also lots of forkknife. Which is crazy, because I don’t even play video games like that. But they had the Simpsons map and I got curious. Then I stopped because Simpsons was over. Boom give myself social media timeouts. Then what do I do? I defy my screen limit with video games.

The thing this brain has done for dopamine amazes me.

I’m trying to limit screen time, yet I download a farm simulator app? And play forkknife now? Who is she?

I know, I’m semi shaking my head hard about it too…

This is how I see it I can create my own thing, and it’s not curated for me. I get todo my own discovery. Or maybe I don’t and me downloading the game was a set up.

Who knows anything anymore.

All I know are the things I like and don’t like at this moment. As well as the things I know how todo.

There is this one thing I am going to get myself addicted to for sure; in an attempt to ban certain aspects of technology.

Reading.

Something I have recently been coming more into. Time and time again I put those pages down. This time I am fully putting myself in the book you’d think the author was writing about me.

The socials I’m giving myself are simply going to be for more knowledge, and networking as much as I can. Especially since networking is so accessible through these teleportation devices in our hands.

But I’m cutting myself off after getting healthy content for my brain. I don’t like how easy it is to feed on technology now. It’s too much and it’s slop. It’s like bullshit fast food for the brain. We all know it’s not good and some of us keep coming back. Ewwww. For the slop. Gross.

Maybe that’s an intense way of putting it, but I need to make it seem gross and icky in order for me to get it the fuck together. We can’t be into that nasty shit.

I will end this with saying yes to supporting the music, the art, the homies, the families, nature, food, the earth, and all that good shit. Other than that all that other stuff is straight doo doo poopoo.

Thank you for being here. Remember to take care of yourself. Be active. Be creative. And do what fuels that fire inside. I love you.